I found it! I found what takes me to my HAPPY PLACE!! It's anything Disney. The music, the cartoons, the movies, I just love it all and it puts such a smile on my face. It makes all my troubles seem to disappear and life so simple again. I need to infuse my life with EVERYTHING DISNEY! I have been doing exactly what I said I didn't want to do... grow up. I need to think and act like a child again. Return to Neverland, take Peter by the hand and fly away and NOT come back. It was so simple and I guess that is why I didn't realize it before. I put all my Disney in the closet, turned off the light, and closed the door. I can so relate to Michael Jackson who never wanted to really grow up, he just wanted to be a kid because in his heart that's what he was. I understand MJ, only you were in the spotlight where your life was on display. I can live my adult childhood in relative privacy. I don't have kids because I am still a kid and what would I do if I had a child, I think it would be a constant struggle because then I would HAVE to grow up and that really is the last thing I want to do. Grown ups are boring, stagnant, and have too many rules. I can still be very responsible and yet still be free to have fun, play, laugh, and be creative. It's how you live that keeps you young at heart. People stress too much. Children look at life in a much simpler way. It may be a very self centered way in some aspects but they also care very much for others who are nice to them, they care about the world around them and are ever curious about it. But they are not going to stay around things that bring them down, depress them, or cause them grief. Of course this is why I have some problems in my job because I understand how the children feel and what they want and I have the conflict of having to be the “adult” and enforce the rules but I try to keep the rules simple and for their safety but to in no way stifle them or their freedoms which they deserve. Now, don't take this the wrong way, I am the responsible adult/teacher in the classroom, that is my work time and I love it and what I do and I don't think that I would be a good teacher if I couldn't/didn't relate to the children.
Anyway, let's get back to that happy place (because let's face it, work isn't always a happy place for anyone, well unless maybe they work at Disney World, but even there you have bosses and it's a job at that point).
Let's just see and hope I can stay here for a little while longer... (3 weeks at least) Why 3 weeks you ask? Because in 3 weeks school starts back for me.
Laugh often , love always, find the music in your soul, and be silly just one more time....